confession

ada yang bilang, salah satu cara untuk berdamai diri sendiri adalah mencoba menerima, mengutarakan, dan merelakan.

banyak hal yang pengen saya utarakan. entah itu kekecewaan, kekelaman, tekanan.
padahal saya tau sekali, hidup saya sudah banyak diberkati.
yah namanya juga manusia, tetep ada keluh kesah.

nyesel banyak mimpi dan hal hal kecil yang gue gak lakuin.
kesal atas penghinaan namun apa daya, saya berontak=menambah masalah
penekanan untuk jadi orang yang sesuai dengan "apa yang mereka mau", bukan "diri saya apa adanya"

kadang saya ingin kabur. INGIN SEKALI.
saya masih ingat, rasa kebebasan, lepas dari jeratan kepenatan, meskipun itu sesaat.

things are getting different now, i just want what we used to so bad....

please stay forever...

why all the great things just go away and leave my life in emptiness? maybe i ask too much, i do laugh, i do spend my days with my boyf and my classmates, but ironically i feel UNCOMPLETE with you guys :'(

nothing lasts forever, but Thanks God i have the photos when the moment we used to be so i could see it, miss it and cry on it...

i MISS spending my money every weekend with bolling, movies, and laughters of US.....

i just want to tell it in english now, sorry if the grammar is so damn. haha.

well, it's almost 4 months, last time i spent my saturdays with my best gank ever; tw, kevin, lia, me, brian, and the other boys like obama, ong, hono.

i MISS all of the moment of us. yeah, but fuck the reality that we COULDN'T back to that time.

i won't blame it on you, no, because i know that you two can't be together, and even i hate the way you broke, but it's your choice.

and, ironically i feel that "me and lia" being exchanged by two other girls. i know i haven't any rights to disagree, but,when i see the way "they" joke, it hurts a bit..

i terribly miss senayan, sky dining, grand indonesia, timezone, bolling, artha gading, viva, bomb bomb car, DAMN I JUST MISS ALL THE MOMENTS I USED TO SPEND EVER SATURDAYS WITH MY GUYS!!!!

i miss the time when you looked me in the eyes, saying that you love me without words

i want you to be NICE with me because it's been 2 fucking weeks, moron!